Why Am I Here in the Seminary?This question oftentimes I asked myself whenever I wake up in the morning and retiring to bed in the evening. I have told you about my decision to go back in the seminary despite of good and modest position I had in my previous company. Yes, for some it is dismaying to know that I exchanged my work just to be back in the seminary. I don’t blame their sentiments, for they are just expressing their views. On the other hand, some were happy for what I have decided because I have found already what my heart desires throughout the years that I spent outside the seminary.
Whenever I wake up in the morning, I still can’t believe that I am back in the seminary and that, I am following again certain schedule for a day. It’s a good feeling though because I have missed this kind of life five years ago. When I came here last May 9, 2008, there were mixed emotions I have felt; excited, fear, nervous, happy, etc. I can’t believe I am in the seminary again. Later that day, we had our first mass together as a batch of new seminarians in San Jose, I felt an unexplainable feeling that time! It seems that both of my feet were cold, my heartbeat is fast pulsating, my muscles pounding. I have never imagine to feel again the same feeling that I have felt when I first entered the seminary. Bumabalik na nga ang dati kong buhay na nakagawian ko…
Even until today, the feeling is still there. How I wish I could describe more vividly to you this kind of feeling that I am now experiencing. This perhaps, a way of God’s love is being channeled through me and I want this to share it to others.
A friend have asked me this question, ‘Do you have any regrets of going back to the seminary?’ , I just simply told my friend, ‘No regrets. I am happy to where I am now.’
Whenever I wake up in the morning, I still can’t believe that I am back in the seminary and that, I am following again certain schedule for a day. It’s a good feeling though because I have missed this kind of life five years ago. When I came here last May 9, 2008, there were mixed emotions I have felt; excited, fear, nervous, happy, etc. I can’t believe I am in the seminary again. Later that day, we had our first mass together as a batch of new seminarians in San Jose, I felt an unexplainable feeling that time! It seems that both of my feet were cold, my heartbeat is fast pulsating, my muscles pounding. I have never imagine to feel again the same feeling that I have felt when I first entered the seminary. Bumabalik na nga ang dati kong buhay na nakagawian ko…
Even until today, the feeling is still there. How I wish I could describe more vividly to you this kind of feeling that I am now experiencing. This perhaps, a way of God’s love is being channeled through me and I want this to share it to others.
A friend have asked me this question, ‘Do you have any regrets of going back to the seminary?’ , I just simply told my friend, ‘No regrets. I am happy to where I am now.’
