The Pinnacle of Regency

Many of you were aware that I was hospitalized for a week due to Pneumonia  but prior to my sickness, I had undergone two more physical pains: I have become acidic and I had undergone minor surgery at my left bottom chin due to pimple infection and came, Pneumonia which I think the pinnacle of all my sicknesses!


God had tested me throughout a year of regency! Emotionally I had undergone a rollercoaster ride of putting my emotions into test and how far I should cling with my emotions, good thing though that I still managed to keep my sanity throughout the year of personality test. Psychologically, I am fine and had kept focus to what I really aim for this regency. Spiritually, I could say that I have kept in touch with my Spiritual Director and had regular visits with him every month if our schedule permits. I have never forgotten to keep a daily spiritual routine with our Lord and I am so happy that He still listens! I have managed to share these thoughts in a famous social networking site for family, relatives and friends. Physically, now this became the Lord's ultimate challenge for me. Yes, I have suffered three physical pains which I mentioned earlier and it seemed that the Lord wants me endure these pains and the ultimate pain among these is Pneumonia! I was hospitalized for a week and during those days I have battled out...weary and tired but still strong in what I believed that I could recover!


When things are going smooth and everything becomes good, here comes the Lord who just by a snap of His hand puts you in a situation where He challenges your strength and your faith. I almost gave up during the battle of physical pains but I cling to the Lord, I knew that these are all part still of the journey and I must endure them. I prayed hard and became steadfast in faith. Just like Job, I must overcome the tests. God has given and God has taken away, Blessed be the name of our Lord!

Thankfully, I passed the tests! I have endured all the pains and now continuing to recover. I thank God for all those who have prayed for my recovery. I have been keeping and saying prayers for all of you. I have kept my faith in the Lord and now gearing up for a greater challenge that lies ahead of me!

I Could Have Chosen to Stay...

Just coming from today's work, I felt so depressed, sad and anxious. I don't why, maybe because of the sudden pour of rain, the heavy traffic jam along highway, the piles of work at the office and some people who are not considerate at all and they are just being insensitive to others' situation. It is not everyday that you may experience smoothness, and it's not perfect after all. I kept asking for myself...why am I here in this kind of situation? I could have chosen to stay but I choose another way. I could have use my freedom and will to do what I want and go anywhere I wish but then again certain limitations must be consider first. I could be someone else that I want to become but I am just myself striving to be the best person I can. I am after all a human being.

If I have chosen to stay, I maybe in a situation where everything is perfectly fine, needs are provided, just having fun and play and socialize with people in leisure and just enjoying life. Ces't la vie! Reality bites....I did not choose this way. I am not complaining. This has given me a reflection about the path less traveled. The path which is God's way.

I chose this way because God knows where I can find myself, my inner wants, my happiness. He knows me ever since in the beginning of my life's conception. How could this be when all of the things uncertain comes along the way bombarded my being? It could be discouraging but again, God knows where He is leading me and all I can do is trust Him. How long? He knows the right time. He knows the right place. He knows everything about me, my strengths and weaknesses and I believe in Him. He is the way, the truth and the life and I believe at the end of this road...I shall dwell in his lovely place and counting my days with Him and serving Him alone.

I am glad to have chosen this road...